For me I always liked to describe it as feeling like a tool. You just work as expected when needed. There is no feels, no life, no identy. When needed, you function exactly in the way society expects* and then you get put back into the dark garden shed.
If you truly believe that you didn’t get it.
Okay wow, it took them years of fighting bias, bureaucracy, and self doubt to be finally on duty as a traffic cop
Big if true